it only occurred to me today how much i’ve just been ‘getting by’.
its time i learnt to ‘live’.

so i made a promise to God today, and we’re going on a Great Adventure together.

 this whole year has made me a pretty selfish person. because everyday i wake up and i think to myself “okay. im just gonna get by this day as painlessly as possible. just get it over with and i can reunite with my bed at 1am”. 
so throughout the day,i say hi to my friends,avoid spit during tutorials,stay awake during lectures,be ruthless in my yong tau fu queue,avoid spit again,stay alive through pe,dash into daddy’s car/take a bus/flag a cab,eat dinner,shower,study,sleep. then it all repeats itself. again and again. like a broken record. yep, broken record.

so how many lives have i been blind too? how many people could i have blessed? how much more could i have given, to the one who gave me His all?

i wanna be able to sit on my bed at the end of the day,and feel shitty that i didnt get to eat my yong tau fu cos i had to be with a friend in need,or feel dead exhausted cos i ran an extra round with the slowest girl in class,or have my legs give way cos i gave up my seat on my 40min commute home to an old aunty. 

i want to be filled in my giving away. 

so these feet i have are clumsy,these hands i have are stubby,and these teeth i have are small. but i’m going on a Great Adventure with God(:

who wants to come along?